green - sour - revitalised - fresh

2011-05-07T17:18:00.000+08:00

broken, angry with no one to turn to.

2011-04-26T00:01:00.000+08:00

i need to constantly pull back to stop myself from getting hurt

2011-04-23T21:54:00.000+08:00

I always wonder how things will be like if i cared less

2011-03-28T02:09:00.000+08:00

starting to lose faith in certain things held closely to me already.
Just want to move on.

2011-03-06T14:35:00.000+08:00

i fear for your change

Rest

2011-02-23T18:42:00.002+08:00

You know the feeling one gets when you work really hard for weeks and you rest for a day then everything hits you?

The last 7 weeks was probably one of the more intense periods I had to ever go through. Internship will never quite be what you expect. From initial fears of being treated like an intern and not getting to do any real work to being overwhelmed with doing real work that you do not feel entirely for. There are constant personnel changes plus annoyances and shit to deal from the client. And to top it off, there are internal struggles that question the very dream you have had for years.

Is this the kind of life I am to lead for the next 10 years of my life? What about the practical considerations that have to come into play. As much as I know I should share the responsibility of looking after my parents, I know the bulk of it will have to come from me. The drama thats gonna unfold in the next month or so is bound to affect our very existence as a basic family unit. Wonder what the future awaits.

I always tell myself not to lose my campus life as it is the kind of thing that one will never get to experience again once they leave school. Yet the competitiveness in me gears me up for chionging and preparing for the future through school, internships and all. It's really hard to find a balance. Simple things like whether to chiong 20aus + FYP next sem and leave the last sem free for internships or to spread it out, heck the internships and just do what I like inbetween.

I wanna dance, travel, keep in touch with pple and take on personal projects on top of doing well in sch and preparing for the workforce.

But I guess you are right in telling me that I can and will be able to do anything, just not everything.

2011-02-21T01:37:00.000+08:00

I refuse to give in.

2011-02-05T01:49:00.001+08:00

i wish you understood

2010-11-09T02:20:00.000+08:00

Don't Stop Dreaming

2010-09-29T14:53:00.000+08:00

today i make a commitment.

i will have my own website when im back from exchange with the domain:

http://www.pohtecktoes.com

and it will chronicle my travels and my life.

(haha, hopefully, this will force me to learn dreamweaver and flash for good)

2010-05-18T18:16:00.001+08:00

its amazing how the rich out there can just keep trying and trying to get things going.

we the poor, have to consider so much before we invest any shit in. nbcb.

2010-05-18T02:30:00.000+08:00

seeks the ideal.

it will come.

i believe

2010-05-15T11:40:00.001+08:00

i have a feeling that is not going to turn out the way it should be at the rate it is going

2010-05-09T08:05:00.001+08:00

wish i can do something for you

Conflict

2010-04-28T20:49:00.004+08:00

every time i see good pieces of work done by my friends, i get conflicted.

on one hand, i want to enjoy as much as i can now and live as much as possible. experience stuff i haven't and explore the world, meeting new people and collecting experiences and memories.

on the other, i want to leave a mark and change the world around me with my work.

this, or that?

how do we balance things out?

lets walk backwards

2010-04-28T04:56:00.001+08:00

films films films trigger trigger thoughts. goes wild wild wild wild wild imagination imagination. inspirations retardation creative.

2010-04-18T14:20:00.000+08:00

it is so much cheaper to organize kickass parties in hong kong.

why singapore not like that huh.

2010-04-14T01:37:00.001+08:00

how much is ever enough.

& at the end of the day, what do we really want?

2010-04-08T05:03:00.000+08:00

i think this is quite good

2010-04-07T02:12:00.002+08:00

the one thing i hate most in the world, is to carry extra baggage.

2010-04-05T04:03:00.001+08:00

this is it liverpool. this is it.

2010-04-04T03:19:00.002+08:00

Never thought that i would actually be afraid of traveling alone for 9 weeks.

But it will be awesome because,

- i will travel across 3 awesome countries (china, russia, korea)

- i will be so much independent

- i will learn so more about myself

- i will meet new friends

- i will collect more experiences

- i will meet old friends along the way

- i will appreciate my loved ones back home so much more

- i will be able to face uncertainty better

- i will face hardship away from the comfort of my home

- i will go to depths where many in my country have not gone before

- i will be braver

now. lots to settle. Thank You Hong Kong for the last couple of weeks. It was epic, and i collected a lot of new experiences and learned lots. School courses are excellent, admin wise is good cause cleared a couple of mods, it was fun, it was lonely at times, i learned to cook,

Gonna take a break from you while i sort the next awesome trip out.

Now go away fear, go away.

Whats On your Bucket List?

2010-04-03T04:24:00.002+08:00

1) Travel the World

2) Live everyday

3) Learn to do a backflip

4) Make a name for myself

5) Freestyle comfortably when breaking

6) Love and Be Loved in Return

7) Do a musical flash mob

8) Create a Stop Motion Piece

9) Sail and live on a yacht for a month

10) Be a mentor for someone

11) ~~Visit Anfield~~

.......

2010-04-03T03:56:00.000+08:00

where the fuck is everyone.

2010-04-02T06:57:00.002+08:00

even when you have moved on. its funny how theres always this special place in your heart.

doesn't mean anything about the now though. i heard they call it trust

2010-04-01T15:37:00.006+08:00

in a couple oF months, it might bE time.
but for now, i better fucking LIve and play everything.

and to beniteZ and Liverpool, please do us fans proud tonight. finish benfica before the seCond leg. KILL!!!

was jUst wondering how it would have been like if i was in another country for instep. i Mean, like a western one. would ProbabLy bE stuck with A group of frieNds. nOt mix around aS much as i would likE. possibly feel bored. spend a lot more money. and not get to do ceRtain stuff I would in hk.

Well, at least theres CertAinly snow in other western countries. =P

*edit: now what the hell is wrong with the fonts. tech seems to be against me these days. lol

2010-03-27T17:35:00.002+08:00

humor and hugs are the best drugs in the world

will you be there?

2010-03-26T02:56:00.004+08:00

will you be there when the sun doesnt shine,

and darkness creeps up my sleeves?

will you be there on a lazy sunday afternoon,

under the blankets with me?

will you be there when we reap the joys of chance,

or the fruits of my/our labour?

will you be there, to grow with me,

to reach out for greater things,

and to enjoy the beautiful moments.

will you be there when time stands still,

and feed my mind and soul.

will you be there for me?

i think i would.

And what if i need you to be there,

but just can't find you?

(Just Saying)

Which Eye Do you Have more?

2010-03-25T03:39:00.004+08:00

The Voyeur’s Eye which sees with the mind, The Vicarious Eye which sees with the heart and The Visceral Eye which sees with the gut.

2010-03-23T17:27:00.002+08:00

hearing sean describe mexico's current situation to me made me feel worried for him. Gun battles between the mafia, police and army seems to be common day occurrence and "getting shot is a real possibility."

though at the same time, there is this urge to go out there and do something more exciting. it is so safe here where we are. and i question, what truly have i gained, experience wise in hong kong. in terms of beneficial stuff for school and work, i guess ive seen a bit and also made life easier when we go back. school is relatively easy, shopping, sightseeing yes, but what about the others? differences in lifestyles in eastern europe? living in fear? more obvious language barriers?

Hong Kong is really too balanced.

But i guess, it is still better than nothing.

Plus we mix around a lot more here. and its comfortable enough to explore other certain areas.

We just need a little more excitement and difference and it would be perfect.

2010-03-22T00:58:00.002+08:00

wtf am i doing with my life.

all these little things mean nothing.

and right now, despite all the ramblings, i just feel like hiding in a shell.

2010-03-21T05:15:00.001+08:00

its interesting how conversations can go with someone you hardly know, but yet have tons of contextual background with.

human behaviour and communication. amazing.

2010-03-21T02:33:00.002+08:00

think i might have just found my life callings.

time to get serious.

now, how to go about fusing them together.

2010-03-19T21:07:00.001+08:00

double life

2010-03-17T03:51:00.001+08:00

if you asked me how my exchange has been. i would say awesome.

cause right now, only 2 things haven't been fulfilled, though i've discovered a lot more as well.

It started with Alice, and ended in Wonderland

2010-03-15T20:17:00.004+08:00

An impromptu weekend sparked off by immense restlessness, after a week of midterms and assignments.

Itinerary of the weekend:

Alice -- Visit of CUHK -- WKWSCI (HK) Dinner -- Impromptu Decision Made -- Shopping in Shenzhen -- Massage and Spa at Queens Spa -- Clubbing at Babyface (shenzhen) and visited a couple others -- Back to the Spa for the night -- Happy Valley Amusement Park -- Late Dinner at Fo Tan

pictures on fb!

2010-03-09T20:36:00.001+08:00

funny how at times when my team is doing badly, this phrase came to me,

"you may love liverpool so much, but do you know if they love you?"

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something happier.

i've got mail! love the cookies.

will i ever grow up?

2010-03-07T03:46:00.005+08:00

"because i am not comfortably rich now, i want to be comfortably rich when i grow up"

"because i plan too much now, i want to live in the moment when i grow up"

"because i have not experienced it now, i want to experience it all when i grow up"

"because i am not something now, i want to be something when i grow up"

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but i refuse to get caught in this race. So,

how will i ever grow up?

2010-03-01T02:17:00.000+08:00

my life will go on. but please, dont die on me.

2010-03-01T00:19:00.002+08:00

one day. i will be forgotten.

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anyway... here are some updates.

i've stopped dance here in hk. its really sad, but i guess its for the better cause of the stupid corn. although im still trying to get rid of it. there seems to be progress though.

the last few days after stopping dance seemed a little blurry. cause it was so packed at first, practicing from the evening till late at night, sleep, wake up, school, dance again. it was shiok and shag at the same time. then suddenly, i had no more of those. but i guess i've tried to manage my time relatively well, had a few nice gatherings and even went to noahs ark today. nice company. good break, but hope some rhythm can be found again. will really miss the dance peeps, cause i think they are the nicest bunch and probably the closest locals i am with. gonna still help them out with props and the actual concert though. hope to keep in contact! might find simon to break once the feet feels better as well.

and oh yes, ive been starting to try and learn how to cook! really saves money and hopefully after a couple of mths, i'll be decent at something. haha

it looks exciting ahead!

2010-02-25T02:08:00.000+08:00

what should i do about the wild and the tame?

TELL ME

2010-02-24T01:04:00.001+08:00

how badly do you want it?

fucking corn

2010-02-23T10:58:00.001+08:00

there are so many thing you want to do, but you cant do them all. if any at all.

what do you want at the end of the day?

2010-02-22T02:47:00.004+08:00

My approach to every single issue, and i do mean everything, can be likened to the process of growing a crop.

First we decide what matters. What plant am i growing? what conditions are optimum, more sunlight or less water? do i need to consult an expect and ask for help? what do i want from this harvest, more crops or better quality? what do i want at the end of the day?

Then we set the boundaries and routine. What i can and cannot do and how far i can push the boundaries. same amount of water and sunlight everyday, but how often to add pesticides to minimize contamination but yet prevent pests.

Next, we watch it grow. this is where things get interesting. the weather may change, or a friend may suddenly appear and offer help. whatever happens, we adapt, according to the boundaries we have kind of set, but would break them if needed.

And during harvest, we give them one last check before sending them to the market.

i think its exhausting to relate everything to it, but i guess it generally works for things that matter.

although i must say, theres plenty of fun in doing things without too much thought and see what happens as well. (not for everything though. heh)

2010-02-20T23:11:00.004+08:00

EDIT*

why i love singapore too. (taken in the car on the way out)

my mom is awesome. she bought so many cny goodies and preixes of singapore food for me to bring back hk. i think theres enough to last me till the end of my term here. rocking. thank you mom! =D

(the mini cny goodies party we're having later is courtesy of her!)

it's funny how my parents are unusually generous. but i love it.

this trip back home was awesome. really got more than i bargained for. meet ups, food, hongbaos, reunions were all great and awesome, but more surprisingly, i learned more about myself. For one, i never thought i would miss singapore one bit, but when i was leaving for hk again, it really struck me how much everyone and everything will be missed. but that wont stop me from being the traveller i want to be as well. i was also humbled a great deal.

gonna really enjoy and live out the rest of the months here and the awesome trip at the school term.

"to see ahead and yet feel the now."

2010-02-20T00:03:00.000+08:00

slowly but surely, i think i am getting humbled.

thank you.

i feel the same way too

2010-02-17T04:50:00.002+08:00

"What should I do about the wild and the tame? The wild heart that wants to be free, and the tame heart that wants to come home. I want to be held. I don't want you to come too close. I want you to scoop me up and bring me home at nights. I don't want to tell you where I am. I want to keep a place among the rocks where no one can find me. I want to be with you."

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on a side note, i promise to not be too cocky anymore. try at least.

2010-02-14T03:18:00.005+08:00

there is so much i want you to know.

if only you would ask and listen. open and see. reach and touch. smell and feel. stop and just know.

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chinese new year feels a lil lonely without sis this year. no one to shou ye with me. no one to count ang paos after first day with me. no one to talk to me more during reunion dinner. and no one to keep me company while visiting awkward relatives.

that aside, im excited to be meeting everyone. friends relatives and all. though im sure most of the conversations will be about my exchange. but lets see if i can turn things around and make it more interesting. haha

vday was nice. though not sweet. but still good. i guess i shouldnt have dwelled on something for so long. as they say, on vday you dont think, just do. and i think too much. =X

though following the heart too much may get you hurt too. =X

okay! shall sleep and collect more ang paos tmr! enjoy my last 6 days here before a 6mth absence.

good night world

2010-02-12T03:58:00.002+08:00

do i expect too much about myself or others?

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anyway, im back! till the 20th at least. kinda happy and excited to be back. can meet up with friends before going away till like july or aug.

see you soon pepps. and have a great lunar new year ahead. missing all the singapore food!

"lots to think about"

Be Glad Your Nose Is On Your Face

2010-02-09T03:49:00.001+08:00

Be glad your nose is on your face,
not pasted on some other place,
for if it were where it is not,
you might dislike your nose a lot.

Imagine if your precious nose
were sandwiched in between your toes,
that clearly would not be a treat,
for you'd be forced to smell your feet.

Your nose would be a source of dread
were it attached atop your head,
it soon would drive you to despair,
forever tickled by your hair.

Within your ear, your nose would be
an absolute catastrophe,
for when you were obliged to sneeze,
your brain would rattle from the breeze.

Your nose, instead, through thick and thin,
remains between your eyes and chin,
not pasted on some other place--
be glad your nose is on your face!

by Jack Prelutsky

2010-02-02T01:52:00.001+08:00

is there a point in giving my all?

Sometimes I Wish that...

2010-02-01T00:42:00.003+08:00

Here are the first images generated from google after typing each of the words that made up this post title. (they are in the right order)

...

ridicukulous, don't you think?

2010-01-31T05:05:00.001+08:00

it'll be sooner, not later

life in hong kong

2010-01-25T01:03:00.004+08:00

So heres what seems likely to happen, now that im happily settled in hong kong.

i will/,

1) Clear 22-25AU's!

- Weet, the mods here some quite easy and the transfer back is worth it! Will clear two/three PE's and a science Gerpe as well.

2) Play Soccer!

- as a mod and with my hall mates when i can. Rocks to take sports and clear aus.

3) Learn Golf!

- as a mod as well.

4) Dance!

- quite a lot actually. but hopefully not too much. got into the dance club called BUDA here and gonna do their yearly Annual Performance in April! They are the warmest bunch of HK pple that i have met so far, and im really glad to join. Though it would mean less time for alot of other things. But i'll work it out. And i'm even taking basic Jazz dance as a module here. rocking. unfortunate thing is that no breaking, and the gymnastic mod became non-exisitent. damn, cant learn my flips and all here already. no chance. gggggrrrrrrrrra

5) Explore!

- i have friday's off, so its pretty good. more time for exploring hong kong! i believe there are still many small places to go. almost cleared all the tourist spots already.

6) Probably give tuition!

- yes, im really low on cash, so i have to do this.

7) Go China, Russia, Korea!

- Gonna have the most kickass travel experience after term ends. Travel slowly up China for 4weeks, Take a train to Eastern Russia for 3 weeks, Travel Korea 3 weeks, and hopefully come back in time for foc. Would love to travel alone for most of the part, meeting friends along the way, but i'll see how it goes. need to go into more detailed planning very soon.

8) Party!

- as often as i can and my body can take it and and and responsibly

9) Talk!

- to as many pple i can. exchange students, locals, auntie washing the street, shop assistants, strangers... its interesting to be get to know such a wide array of pple. especially as an asian exchange student, in an asian country. think the interaction i have with the other exchange students are simply really unique. although theres only a small grp of sgporeans here and we probably are not having as much fun as those who are in a big group somewhere else, i think we get to explore more.

10) Miss!

- all the good people and good things back home and cherish them more. =)

11) have found a new love for Philosophy

- taking a mod here. some think its rubbish. i feel its all airy fairy and all. but still interesting. heh

Life is good, and will be even better.

2010-01-22T03:19:00.002+08:00

if only you can see what i see

Of Opportunities and Tiongs and Grass

2010-01-18T18:17:00.003+08:00

I think im turning into a tiong. There seems to be this admiration for them. As i walk the streets in Shenzhen and surfed ard the net for things in China, it struck me how talented some of these people ar. Yes they produce tons of fakes, but these pple are experts at it! the quality and workmanship of some of them is comparable to the real ones. And not to forget those in the IT sector.

Yet many of them are struggling to live. Beggers that come in all sorts of shapes, sizes, age, and even those that use unique and creative methods for begging. Life is hard for many there. Even for those who have honed their skills. Elsewhere, they may make it big. Which brings me to the question of opportunities. We often say that people create their own opportunities. But for these people, that opportunity never comes. The environment and others constantly repress and prevent anyone from rising. Yes there are success stories, but the truth is, i think im lucky to have been born a Singaporean.

Kudos to those who have it good from birth. You guys had been the chosen ones. Now don't screw it up, or people will take it away from you.

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Was looking at pictures of the kids on exchange in America and i can't help but feel so jealous! HongKong isnt that all bad, but i guess its just too similar to Singapore and thus comfortable.

The last 2 weeks was good, going places, meeting pple, but the similarities just irk me sometimes. And the snow, skiing, and all looks so much greener!

I think whats good here is that is really a mix of east and west. More so than Sg. And i've been having lots of fun reading and learning about how pple think. MACRO Intercultural studies! haha (even though im taking the course intercultural communication here as well).

We have it easy here as well in terms of adjusting cause its similar.

But, i'd still like to go snowboarding and live in a cold cold place with snow!

p.s to make up for that, im gonna have a kickass travel plan after hk for 3mths!

money is the only issue. haha. China, Russia, Korea, i will come soon!!!

p.p.s it was nice to meet you here.

p.p.p.s pictures uploaded periodically on facebook! lazy to upload them here as well. haha

2010-01-17T23:44:00.002+08:00

Someone asked me a question today:

How do you know that you are not just in love with love itself, instead of being in love with the person?

2010-01-12T00:29:00.000+08:00

how you become so good?

and why can i never decide

2010-01-09T03:33:00.000+08:00

it rocks and sucks at the same time

2010-01-07T17:39:00.001+08:00

is the difference really too much?

or does it not matter?

i question myself everyday.

but at least i know for sure the chapters from the past are closed for good. at my side at least.

way to my heart

2010-01-05T03:26:00.001+08:00

through the stomach and the mind

First Day

2010-01-04T19:21:00.003+08:00

Farewell was a good affair. Thank you guys for making it down. it means alot. =)

Thanks daddy mommy, trix, ed, bambi, xx, auds, corn, xiangyun, glen, shuqi, spencer, shikky, yingguang, joseph, eddie, erica, mike, bob, groher and all the well wishes from the rest.

So much to miss, yet so much to look forward to as well.

In a nutshell, HKBU is a pretty nice place. The people are friendly, administration fairly good and definitely helpful. I love the food, am satisfied with my room, though haven met my hong kong roomie yet.

Other than the cock up, which gave me a fucking shock when i returned to my room 6hrs later to find it emptied, alls pretty good. looking forward.

Still dead tired from the lack of sleep. so shall talk more about it in due time.

On a side note, i love the jacket the dudes got me, and that canto book was really thoughtful.

Received the most beautiful and potentially fulfilling notebook to date as well. =)

More to come.

Christmas is Coming

2009-12-21T12:36:00.002+08:00

But i'm beginning to think that it's not possible to keep up.

Anyohhow, i loved the last 6mths.

2009-12-07T18:09:00.002+08:00

everywhere but nowhere

i want to say no without a heavy heart

i want to say yes without a tired mind

i want to be everywhere and everywhere

It's over! Well, almost.

2009-11-25T19:13:00.005+08:00

With the closure to 207 (i hope wont tabao), i would like to declare that exams has more or less ended. Although there's still 258 and 231, nothing will be quite like 207 (at least for now). It goes beyond the usual remembering of concepts, linking them and applying simply because there seems to be soooooo much to remember. I've spent many sleepless nights and i think it's the first academic orientated subject that i'm complaining about. And if there is one take away, is that 207 has reminded me the importance of starting early and studying smart. Some things, just need time. No way around it.

With that, i'll also like to declare that it's been my best semester so far. Academically, i felt challenged and learnt a lot. I've always believed that competition breeds excellence and that is probably why i never ever complain when others are better. Creative sparring sessions in 258, 232 and ESPECIALLY 231 has been exciting. It's been draining, we've been bitching, but it was good. What makes it better is that it's friendly competition. We do not go all out to slit each others throats or undertake underhand methods like "hog(ging) onto cameras refusing to let others borrow so they can get the proper grades required," [jeremy's note]. Seeing all these great works from my juniors, peers and seniors have inspired me. And i thank all of you for that. Like jeremy said, all the little sharing sessions here and there has been uber useful and the environment we are creating here is really awesome.

There has been discussions this sem about the idea of what should we be judged on and graded on. My question back is, at the end of the day, what do you really want? To each their own. Let's not judge others based on what they want. We are all grew up differently (think field theory), and have the right to our own views and expectations. Like ivan commented in a particular fb status, "make love, not war".

Out of school, things have been fairly good as well. Much better than the other sems at least. Although i think i've been neglecting dance quite a bit ever since term started proper. And i apologize to my friends whom i've kinda disappointed. I know you missed my presence!! (haha) Dancetitude was great fun and i would definitely do it again if i can afford to.

I've completed the rout of co-curricular activities that i've set out to do for university with the closure of DnD and anything that comes by now will be a bonus. i've learnt, i've experienced, i've influenced, and i will continue doing so.

I've travelled, i've made new friends, got closer to some, i've learnt to see again, i've gained hope and assurance, i gained comfort and many more. INSTEP is just new sem and i can't wait to go out there and collect more 'experiences'.

For the rest of the papers. all the best guys!

Adaptable

2009-11-15T05:41:00.002+08:00

my biggest talent lie not in any particular skill. but in my ability to have any talent i set myself to.

How much is too much?

2009-11-13T13:53:00.005+08:00

Today i saw a friend cry in class after the tutor criticized her work. He wasn't harsh or anything, but i believe it was cause she put in a lot of effort in her work.

At the end of the day, what makes a good piece of work?

Tutors requirement? Or commercial success? Personal triumph?

Just how much is too much? And how much should we be prepared for criticism?

I guess it's anyone's take. There has been much talk about this in school lately, about syllabus issues, unfair grading and all. For me, at the end of the day, it's what you want. As i quote myself from a comment i made earlier, "if you want the grades, conform to the requirements and do your best to pick up whatever you can. if you want to take risks, be prepared for the best/worst. if you wanna get a taste or it, fuck the grades. if you just wanna use the opportunity to do what you want, fuck the grades as well. if you wanna make a change, do something about it, write in or something."

That aside, i'm really glad i took up Com 231 & 232 this sem, and i'm thankful for being in the tutorial classes i'm in. Seems that my tutorials always seem to have a lot of good work and people. It was challenging, but at the end of the day, i learn and i push together with my friends. It was a journey of self realization as well. I learnt stuff i'm ok at, bad at, good at, and stuff that i like and dislike. Grades can come later. =)

2009-11-10T15:00:00.002+08:00

a little potato says im too emo these days.

BUT I'M NOT!!!

Dream Big

2009-11-08T03:51:00.002+08:00

Seeing something someone did reminded me that i've forgot to dream for a whole sem. Been so caught up with activities, schedules and targets that i missed out something so dear to me.

Dream BIG

2009-11-01T15:27:00.002+08:00

This is why i don't like coming back.

Selfish i know, but theres only so much the heart can take before i lose myself

There is only so much a fan's heart can take

2009-11-01T01:21:00.002+08:00

2009-10-31T22:28:00.001+08:00

Now i know.

2009-10-29T02:13:00.002+08:00

This is epic. Caught the premiere today. Was kinda a last minute decision but it was awesome. Although the repercussions was that i can't complete my work and that i had to pangseh a group of very dear friends. MJ, you are my idol. Sing Dance Perform, you can do it all.

This season seems to be one where i seem to let alot of people down again cause of Work. Again, ive never spent so much time with Work before. Because of YOU, i've missed so many outings, pangsehed so many friends, skipped dono how many sessions of MJ and break, lost many hours of sleep, became more anti social, but learned hell lot, and sharpened my thinking. But i would still like to see you much less. Can we have an open relationship instead, give each other some space so we can have more room to grow. Please Work, make it Work. HAHA

*im getting hysterical*

2009-10-27T02:31:00.001+08:00

FUCK IT.

LETS GO.

2009-10-23T02:55:00.001+08:00

One thing that really makes me tick

Surprises. Even little ones.

2009-10-21T13:43:00.001+08:00

Turn Around =)

This is getting outrageous

2009-10-21T09:41:00.001+08:00

Yesterday my dear friends reminded me how everything that has been going wrong was my fault. The 231 presentation later, how 232 is screwing up my life, how liverpool has been losing, and even the sudden downpour on our walk back to hall last night.

As i log on to the internet today, i saw this headline from channelnewsasaiaonline. "Football: Liverpool booed as Lyon inflict fourth straight defeat."

Tell me this can't be true.

I need a rolly polly

Impress Upon Me

2009-10-18T05:00:00.005+08:00

"Man embraces Sadness" (Tan, 2009)

That was one of the most outrageous things i've ever heard some time ago. That was, until i began to understand its context. I suppose too often, we judge, far too quickly.

"If i do not like you, it simply means that i do not know you well enough." - Abraham Lincoln

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It's been a whirling couple of weeks. Never knew i could ever get so occupied with school work. The last two sems had always been about events. Yet this sem is so different. It was supposed to be one of great self relief as i indulge in my hedonistic behaviours. Yet, i often find myself caught in-between.

That aside, i am happy.

Reflective, but happy. Generally.

Now Focus. And Dream.

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"Blowers Daughter" - Damien Rice

And so it is

Just like you said it would be

Life goes easy on me

Most of the time

And so it is

The shorter story

No love, no glory

No hero in her skies

I can't take my eyes off you

tinkerer

2009-10-13T16:10:00.001+08:00

think i need some time to refine some skills

2009-10-08T19:09:00.000+08:00

timing and proximity

Maybe

2009-10-03T16:27:00.002+08:00

Maybe i want to be....

a wedding planner, and be part of creating many magical nights

in the advertising industry, and see my creations all over the world

air steward, and collect experiences till my heart's content

an events person, since i 'love' planning so much

dreams designer, and create fantasies never achievable in daily life

2009-09-21T17:20:00.002+08:00

when i meet things and situations where i'm not sure what to do, or how to prioritize. i fall back on this single thought.

what am i going to remember at the end of the day?

I'll Never Walk Alone

2009-09-20T13:34:00.003+08:00

With friends like this. I know i'll never walk alone.

That aside. I'm confirmed going Hong Kong for exchange! Hong Kong Baptist Uni. A bit sad that im not going Mexico of sean though. that would have been the BOMB. oh well, But still cool. afraid of the canto though. cant speak a word of tt other than "leng zai" man. haha

"too observant for my own good"

2009-09-18T05:37:00.000+08:00

What Does it take, to be good in something?

Happy

2009-09-13T01:22:00.002+08:00

Really happy with how things are going with my life now. =)

Only drawbacks are school work. ggggrrrrrrrrrrrr. and that i need a job.

secret - "i'm too picky"

Inadequate

2009-09-05T13:50:00.003+08:00

After reading a juniors blog, i suddenly felt damn inadequate.

Some people seem so ready to embrace life. I've always thought that i knew exactly what i want, but after seeing how ready others are, i can't help but feel inadequate.

no worries, there's time still though.

plus i dont want to end up growing up too fast.

balance.

latent

2009-09-02T10:20:00.002+08:00

It's been quite difficult to produce anything of substantial quality these days. Been performing below par on most things and on all sides. bahspread.

i need the spark back!

This sem has too much potential to be missed out on.

After All This Time

2009-08-27T09:46:00.001+08:00

Months apart, but the dying flame still flickers.

Biggest two nights of my 1.1years in NTU

2009-08-20T03:45:00.002+08:00

I'm

Nervous and Excited.

Scared and Confident.

Worried and Calm.

Stressed and Relaxed.

The myriad of emotions running through me now is simply insane.

Dance prac today was almost frustrating. The costume changes were driving me nuts. For some weird reason. ONly daniel and me had to change costume 4 times in the whole story 1. Like insane. And he didnt bring his costume today, so only i experienced the full impact. Retarded. Crazy. Not possible. Luckily it got sorted out in the end. had to cut some choreo and i felt quite 'bu gan yuan' , cause we've spent so much time on it, but based on the time i have and all, i guess thats the best thing to do.

DnD had a really pleasant surprise today. Rocks. Though theres still lots of small things here and there to be done, overall its looking good i guess. Really hope we do not miss out anything.

DnD, Dancetitude. Triple D's, here i come.

INSTEP

2009-08-06T17:42:00.002+08:00

HK Baptist, Uni of Auckland, City Uni of HK, National Chengchi University

Hmmm shld tt be my order of choice?

The Creative iStruggle

2009-08-06T00:32:00.001+08:00

Before I begin, I must declare that this post will probably be erratic and probably incoherent, but it reflects my state of mind on the subject matter.

Ok, I’ve been having some trouble grappling with the issue of what makes a creative work good?

To frame things up, to me, creative works here means any form of advertising, pr and art form across all mediums (tvcs, photography, print, campaigns, media stunts etc).

What I am really struggling is, how can we say that a creative work is good? I mean, taste is so damn subjective. Everyone sees the same thing differently. So how can we tell that something is superior over something else?

Some pple I’ve spoken to say that it really depends on your objectives. But what if you achieve your objectives, but the work still doesn’t look good? I’m sure we have all seen tons of bad ads all over. They may look bad, but their reach and outrageousness gives them the attention they need.

In the commercial world, does satisfying your client prove that you have completed an exemplary work? Taste is so subjective and your client may know no better.

And does the situation and circumstances under which the work was produced matter too? Budget and time often affect the outcome. But at the end of the day, who will know? Or is the final outcome the one and only important thing.

Personally, I find it really hard to come out with anything these days cause I simply can’t convince myself what makes a good piece. And I’ve always believed that self expression should be part of the whole process as well., yet sometimes, it’s hard to do so (in the commercial side of the creative industry at least, I think the fine arts are still going strong in self expression).

How can you convince yourself to do well when the benchmark is so hazy?

iStruggle.

[edit]

Maybe just making the best out of the situation and being able to capture your target audience and objectives are enough. And the cherry on top of the fries (yes, I know the expression is a lil weird) would be to include a part of yourself in it.

Peace.

Fate

2009-08-04T02:11:00.000+08:00

don't you just hate it sometimes when stuff dont come at the right time or moment for you?

i really hope that by some miracle, i pull it through.

On Dance

2009-07-28T05:24:00.000+08:00

I've recently grew in love with many forms of dance.
though i'll gladly be the spectator this time.

To be honest, i've always been secretly jealous of those who had the opportunity to pick up dance, music or a sport young. They are just so much better.
Will make the right, right-er this time.

Encouraged

2009-07-23T12:28:00.001+08:00

I'm in for some shit

2009-07-22T03:16:00.002+08:00

DnD's on the 21st.

Dancetitude bump-in is also on the 21st.

Think im really in deep shit this time. i cant possibly not go for DnD.

But not going for bump-in 1 day before concert is suicidal as well. i'm sure there will be last minute changes.

This is depressing and very worrying.

Not to mention how all the rehearsals are gonna affect dnd meetings and stuff. and sch starting means there will be lots of admin work to handle. somebody help me please.

the wall

2009-07-20T03:12:00.002+08:00

tell me i'm not talking to the wall.

please.

Alcohol Brings The Best of of pple

2009-07-16T14:10:00.002+08:00

in moderation of course

Your Weakness. Not Mine

2009-07-13T01:12:00.002+08:00

Stop running la fuck. and get your work done. you aren't getting nowhere.

Not with me at least.

WKWSCI FOC 09: A Song For Viola

2009-07-11T11:46:00.001+08:00

To be honest, i never expected to have gained this much.

I never knew that i would be part of one of the most awesome camps i've ever been. There were times when i had my doubts, but im convinced now. Kudos to the FOC Team man. Perhaps its the coming back as a senior thing that contributed as well. One seems to be much more aware and appreciative as a senior.

Pavarotti was well, awesome to the max. Although i hardly cheered with you guys, and was away 1/3 of the time doing DnD stuff, I really had fun and felt some conenction. i love the fun loving nature of the group. We play not to win or lose, but to simply just have fun. Despite losing every single thing from day 1 till 2 (other than 2 small games), morale was still so high. And eventually, we got onto a little winning streak ourselves. I really have a feeling, this OG will really bond very well. Looking forward to the first OG outing. Seniors in Pava, were really welcoming as well. Without you guys, the whole experience wouldnt have been that memorable. Love the late night chats and games with you guys.

Many friendships were formed, reforged and reinforced in ASFV. New experiences were casted, and my sadistic tendencies were confirmed (finding nemo rocks). Image got ruined slightly by the film and freshies during Starry Starry night, but i guess it's all worth it. Good fun, lots of laughs.

Was really happy with the DnD team as well. although i didnt show it that much, and may do it at not so appropriate times (like just now after camp, cause i really felt the urge to tell you guys), the commitment and effort the guys have been putting in is amazing. Where got pple 7 man team raise 11k for DnD one (chests up, head high. haha), almost same as FOC liao, somemore ticket prices cheaper, and its happening on a CRUISE. I still remember the porkfloss roll days, TABOO, and all the setbacks we faced from the stigma DnD has or used to have, in and out of school. If any of you guys are reading it, though highly unlikely, i would really love to say "thanks for keeping the dream alive." We have taken the first step at making CS an even more awesome place. WL & his SWL's have got the ball rolling with an awesome FOC already, now its up to us to up the ante and bring DnD up. Things are slowly coming into place and its full throttle for us now. Tough, but its hopeful and fucking potentially, fulfilling.

Now its back to reality. Full drive on DnD & Dancetitude.

Then freedom and lots of nostalgia. =)

Looking forward to the new, old and no fate yet friendships.

p.s. anyone knows how to add comments to your blog instead of just calling?